Uncomfortably numbI haven't been posting much recently because, well, I just haven't got anything left to say. I'm numb on the outside these days. I get up, I go to work, I play with DS, cuddle him, count my blessings. But inside there is a pain, it never goes away, and it takes all my effort to get through the day without it cutting right through me.
I still can't believe this is happening. I can't believe that I am the person who has written the words above. I can't believe it hurts so much.
I found a lump a few days ago. I haven't had it checked out, I've barely thought about it. It's probably nothing, and if it's not, my only concern is how it might affect TTC.
Infertility was always my greatest fear, anything else should be a walk in the park.
Update: it has been mentioned to me that my last comment is a bit insensitive, so if I had offended anyone, I am truly sorry. I have no first-hand experience of cancer (lump is probably a cyst, but we're keeping an eye on it), and I can only imagine how traumatic it must be.