Another day, another cycleI had a temp dip below the coverline today at....7dpo. Only time will tell, but the early signs indicate the crappest cycle ever. But, next stop IUI.
Ok, here's the thing - I just said "I think AF is on the way, but it's ok cos we're doing IUI next cycle". That's not exactly true. AF is probably on the way and I'm completely and utterly devastated as I'd got my hopes up just as much as ever, have been obsessing over the slightest twinge since O, have worked out due date and age gap with DS, work has gone to shit just like it does in every 2ww, and I feel like I'm in a little infertile cocoon and will never be allowed to rejoin the world outside.
IUI is the furthest thing from my mind. It's part of the next cycle, the one I hoped would never happen. I'm not "looking forward" to it, I'm dreading needing to do it, and I'm not even allowing myself to think of what will happen if it doesn't work.
I'll end this dark post with some very sad news - I posted a couple of weeks ago that my friend, D, was pregnant after 2 years; sadly, her little baby didn't make it. Why can't miscarriages be reserved for those who can conceive easily? Not that I'd wish one on anyone, but this seems like a double punishment.