Yep, there's definitely a baby in thereI am starting to believe I may have a baby in the not too distant future. I've allowed myself ponder the necessity of a double buggy, and have wondered if I'll manage to finish my PhD thesis by next March (yikes!). Yes, the scan went well, and each day that passes I have become more accustomed to the idea that this might actually work out.
My obs was fantastic and did everything she could to put my mind at rest. She did a belly scan, but all we could see was a blob, which she was happy with, but sent me for a transvaginal scan to help put my mind at ease. The yolk and sac were measuring fine for my dates based on IUI/O (due date 31 March) so I'll stick with that for now. There was no fetal pole, although the midwife pointed to what looked set to become the fetal pole, and told me that it looked very healthy (bet she says that to all the girls). She said it looked like the heart would start beating in about 3 days, so I'm back in on Thurs to make sure. Obs will scan me every 10 days after that until I get to 12 weeks.
One interesting point: a nurse took our details before we saw obs. The first thing she asked me was how I was feeling; I said very nervous. She went through our history - live birth, m/c, and it was only when I mentioned IUI that she said, "Ah, I see why you're so nervous". I think they see m/c's so often that they start to think of them as a normal pregnancy event. To be honest though, I'm not that afraid of m/c - I'm bloody terrified of another bout of infertility though.
Just had to run off for a bit and am back now, reading my last sentence. No, it's wrong. I couldn't bear to lose this baby now, it's brought me so much hope and helped me feel human again. Yeah, I no longer just want a baby, I want this baby. Oh god, I've become attached.
Had a great holiday (went away for the weekend straight after scan), apart from a nasty wasp sting I sustained as we packed the car to return. Arm swelled up and still have a 2-inch sized itchy lump. Not dangerous to the baby, despite what the Internet says. Not many symptoms to report, but this time I'm glad. Am more tired than last week, boobs slightly sorer and feel a bit yucky if I don't eat for a while, but that's it. Roll on Thurs.