No, No, NoOh God, my safety net is gone. No IUI for at least 2 cycles. For my own good. Can barely hold it together to type, more tears than the day of the scan. There is NO WAY I can get through the next two months with no hope of a pregnancy. NO WAY. Fuck all the positive things I said before, fuck fuck fuck. They were the words of a woman with hope.
How can it be for my own good??? The only thing keeping me going was the thought of another chance. The miscarriage didn't quite kill me emotionally, but no hope of a pregnancy before Christmas is sure to finish me off.