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Monday, January 29, 2007

Prison break

They always say "just take a break". I always thought there were no breaks, that once you got on the TTC train there were no stops until the labour ward. I was wrong. As you thunder past the IUI station on the way to IVF, there is a short stop called BCP (birth control pill). You can get off and stretch your legs and try to forget about that bloody train and its bumpy ride.

There is no chance of a baby this month, no point in trying. No point in measuring out the days of the bleed, watching for changes in CM, putting our lives on hold waiting for the big O. No point in mourning the past cycle as we wait for the next one. No temping, no charting, no pee sticks, no hoping.

It's such a relief.

I feel like I've been released on bail. Due back in a few weeks, but for now I'm going to do some work, maybe some writing, file my tax returns, do some household chores. Normal things like normal people. Things other than TTC.

I'm taking one day at a time. Not going to worry about what's ahead for now, I'll let the clinic deal with that. Just going to enjoy this time out with my family and appreciate life as it is.

8 Comments:

At 2:10 PM, Anonymous Artblog said...

It's a good feeling isn't it? :)

 
At 11:21 PM, Blogger LoTwan said...

People often wonder why we don't ttc between IVF cycles. When there is little hope of doing it naturally I enjoy the fact that we are NOT ttc when we are not cycling.

Enjoy the respite.

 
At 12:45 PM, Anonymous Discreid said...

hmmmm I left a comment last night that doesn't seem to have made it in...

not to worry, just wanted to say it was great to see you posting and I'm delighted you're enjoying the respite!

as they say "it's all ahead of ya!"

love ya

D

 
At 3:54 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

ITS great to have the pressure off isnt it . hope you are coping, with the rest, cometimes i find it hard to have nothing on my mind or in the pipeline if that makes since. by the way did i see your son in artane castle today could have sworn it was him. think i might be pregnant if thats not too personal, its been a year tomorrow since i got pregnant on my last miscarriage. am terrifed and pleased at the same time, mind you if i am and if it was a horse race i wouldnt bet on my success rates. better go cause i just read this back and it sounds so awful ger

 
At 3:54 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

ITS great to have the pressure off isnt it . hope you are coping, with the rest, cometimes i find it hard to have nothing on my mind or in the pipeline if that makes since. by the way did i see your son in artane castle today could have sworn it was him. think i might be pregnant if thats not too personal, its been a year tomorrow since i got pregnant on my last miscarriage. am terrifed and pleased at the same time, mind you if i am and if it was a horse race i wouldnt bet on my success rates. better go cause i just read this back and it sounds so awful ger

 
At 9:47 PM, Blogger Feebee said...

Ger - congratulations! I really hope everything works out for you this time and don't forget to keep me updated.

We have never been to Artane castle! I do often wonder though if people recognise him from his photos online.

 
At 11:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

feebee, im glad you werent offended that i thought isaw him, he has a twin though. false alarm, think im losing my mind

 
At 12:14 PM, Blogger Feebee said...

Ger - if you ever see him again, please come and say hello!

 

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