Bob Hope and no hopeWith all the excitement of IVF and miscarriage, I didn't have time to dwell on the small matter of being a poor responder. So when the reality finally hit home yesterday, I located my bloodwork results from 18 months ago and googled them for the first time.
That is not a typo. That is FOUR HUNDRED AND EIGHTY SEVEN. I have, in writing, confirmation that my results are all "completely normal". Dr Google tells me that, not only is my E2 off the chart, but my LH is also indicative of premature ovarian failure. Why has nobody ever pointed this out to me??? I could get angry but I just don't have the energy.
My short, erratic cycles, my 8 day luteal phases, my multiple miscarriages, and most damning of all, my two measly eggs collected - it looks like I am coming to the end of the line. Is there any hope? Please tell me if you think there is. I can't live without hope.
I mentioned donor eggs before. That was when I still had hope. I am too stifled with disappointment now to contemplate a next step. I just can't believe this is happening.
I had blood drawn yesterday, day 2. I should get the results on Tuesday. As with my last blood test, I have no hope of a positive outcome.