Carry on cyclingTwo years of looking after myself, watching my diet and limiting my alcohol consumption have really worn me down. So on Saturday night I went out and drank until I puked. Best fun in ages. What was I thinking all those other nights when I stuck to 3 or 4 drinks??? Even though I was in the pre-ovulatory phase???? Man, I've had some boring nights out in the last four years of being pregnant, breastfeeding and trying to become pregnant. If I'm going to have to do it for another nine months at some stage then I'd better get some good nights in in the meantime. Maybe I'll be really crazy this weekend and have a post-ovulation blow-out!!! Cos let's face it, 25 failed cycles says it's not really that much of a risk, now is it?
Still, hasn't stopped me obsessing as usual. Probably more than usual. EWCM from day 7/8, no +OPK until yesterday, day 19. Guess what we've been doing since day 7??? You're all jealous, right?!?! Well this time I think we've nailed it for sure, how could we lose???
Just in case our marathon cycle doesn't go to plan, I spoke to my doc yesterday. He is not concerned with my FSH level - "you produce eggs, they fertilise, you get pregnant". So IVF number two is go. I'll be doing a short antagonist protocol, which means no downregulation, no messing about, just start bleeding and get stuck in straight away. I could start as soon as AF arrives but we both agreed to wait for another cycle, so I will start at the end of May. It's unlike me to want to wait but in my post +OPK optimism I was fantasising that two natural cycles might be all we need. Well, a girl can dream. I will forget about those 25 failed cycles until Saturday night.